My Darling Del, Im so very sorry I didnt take you home on the Tuesday 11th Jan, b ut I was afraid if I did something would happen and you would die. Then I went to see you the next day 12th and that awful excuse for a doctor told me you couldnt go home because you had pnuemonia. I knew you didnt you had no symptoms but what could I do. He said 1 day on antibiotics and then home. You seemed so well that night, because I got you your medication you had a dinner, you wasnt breathless and I left you happy knowing you would be going home. I will never forgive myself for leaving you there, if I had bought you home you wouldnt have died. Im so so sorry, please forgive me, I would never have left you if Id known you were in danger. I will find the truth I will keep fighting, I love and miss you with all my heart. Please wait for me my darling, until we are together again. I love you so much and hate life without you. I love you xxxxx